Saturday May 19, 2018 time: 2320
Sydney tried his best to mow the yard but when he ran over some small sticks hidden in the grass he jumped and let go of the handle thus cutting the motor off. It scared him. I brought out a cold glass of tea and watched him off the porch in my jammies. He has been hugging on me and I think that him seeing me in a collar of shame and bandage worries him somewhat. There is empathy at times, other times he doesn't have a clue.

Day 4 after surgery and my neck still looks as though I have a baseball in my throat. It also still feels like it when I swallow. I have been eating mostly soft foods like oatmeal and jello.When I wake up from sleep is when I primarily feel the severe pain in my neck, shoulder, and back muscles. I have stopped the Percocet today and have done the Cyclobenzaprine  (muscle relaxer) and Tylenol and found it works well in combination. Being a stomach sleeper has me compromising to the left side and often waking on my back. What I have notice and recalled when Dr Li said that my neck muscles have atrophied away and I find that I cannot lift my head from my pillow. I have to take my hands and physically lift my head to the direction it needs to go, sad story but true. All the more reason to go to the bathroom before going to bed, cause momma ain't goin' nowhere fast!